TENHO APRENDIDO II HAVE LEARNED II

TENHO APRENDIDO II

Aprendi que não adianta sofrer por coisas como dinheiro, trabalho e prestígio.

E houve um tempo que o trabalho era considerado por mim minha mais importante missão! Como eu fui ridícula!

Hoje chego a me divertir assistindo a brigas e discórdias que não levam a nada e que não valem absolutamente nada. Passo inócua e assisto impassiva a birras e revoltas. Todos nós que passamos pelo que passamos estamos acima de tudo.

Estamos em um patamar superior porque entendemos tudo com muita clareza e propriedade e mantemos um pé no material e outro no espiritual. Só que o segundo para nós é agora muito mais relevante do que o primeiro.

Fazemos o melhor possível no trabalho e no dia-à-dia, mas não nos desesperamos mais com o que não vale à pena. Graças aos nossos filhos hoje estamos acima de todas as infrutíferas discórdias terrenas.

Fomos vacinados e não nos desesperamos mais com ofensa ou ingratidão. O centro de nossas vidas é Deus. E é Ele quem hoje cuida de nossos filhos.

“Não fique triste quando ninguém notar o que fez de bom
Afinal... O sol faz um enorme espetaculo ao nascer,e mesmo assim, a maioria de nós continua dormindo”

Charles Chaplin

 

HAVE LEARNED II

I learned that it is useless to suffer for things like money, work and prestige.
And there was a time that the work was considered by me my most important mission! How ridiculous I was!
Today I get to have fun watching the fights and disagreements that lead nowhere and are not worth anything. Step innocuous impassive and watch the tantrums and riots. All of us who sufferd so are above all.
We are on a higher level because we now understand everything very clearly and properly and keep one foot in the material and the other on the spiritual side. But the spiritual side for us is now more relevant than the first.
We do our best at work and day-to-day affairs, but not get in despair over what is not worth it. Thanks to our children today we are above all earthly strife fruitless.
We were vaccinated and do not get into despair with offense or ingratitude. The center of our lives now is God. And He is the One who takes care of our children today.

"Do not be sad when no one notice the good things one have done
After all ... The sun is a huge spectacle at birth, and even then, most of us still asleep "
Charles Chaplin

TENHO APRENDIDO I I HAVE LEARNED I

TENHO APRENDIDO I

Ensinei muitas coisas ao meu filho amado, mas muitas outras aprendi com ele e continuo aprendendo. Aprendi por exemplo a chorar sem que ninguém perceba. Como dizia o grande sambista, cantor e compositor brasileiro Cartola (1908-1980) : 

”Quem me vê sorrindo pensa que estou alegre
O meu sorriso é por consolação
Porque sei conter para ninguém ver
O pranto do meu coração” 

É que entendi que o mundo continua e que algumas pessoas se cansam dos meus lamentos e não conseguem alcançar o tamanho e profundidade do meu sentimento. Então de nada adianta  gritar para fora, só por dentro. Por isso calço meu sapato tênis e saio à pé para o trabalho ou para fazer pequenas compras com frequência. Lá me exercito, rezo, converso com meu filho e também choro sem que ninguém veja. Assim incluo meu filho no meu desabafo, me sinto melhor e continuo a caminhada.

I HAVE LEARNED I

I taught many things to my beloved son, but many others I learned from him and I am still learning. For example, I learned how to cry so that nobody could notice. As the great Brazilian sambista, singer and composer Cartola (1908-1980), wrote:

"Whoever sees me smiling thinks I'm happy
My smile is for consolation
Because I know to contain my tears so that no one can see
The cry of my heart "

The fact is that I understood that the world continues and that some people get tired of hearing wailing and fail to achieve the size and depth of my feelings. So it is useless to cry out, only inside is worth crying. That is why sometimes I put on my shoes and go out to walk to work or to do some shopping. There I exercise, pray, talk to my son and also cry without anyone seeing. So I include my son in my rant, I feel better and keep walking.

Músicas ao piano tocadas pelo Iel Piano songs played by Iel

Tenho Certeza I am sure

Você não perdiria por nada um jogo do Brasil e por isso tenho certeza de que você está assistindo agora, em algum lugar, este jogo que está sendo jogado neste exato momento.

 Aprendi com você muitas coisas e quase tudo me lembra você. Futebol é uma delas. Você amava, era um expert de carteirinha pois já jogou em time. Me lembro bem de seu movimento quando eu atrapalhava sua visão da TV. Você não desgrudava da tela nesses momentos e vibrava.

Futebol me lembra tanto você que sinto você quando tem jogo como hoje e por isso posso apostar que você está por aqui. Porque aqui era seu lugar favorito de ficar em dia de jogo.

Como você está aqui e não quero atrapalhar seu jogo, quero apenas agradecer a pelas lições que aprendi com você e que me tem sido tão úteis na vida: a calar, observar e refletir, a gostar de boa música, a admirar a natureza, brincar com animais, a gostar de jogos e aceitar desafios.  Obrigada Iel

You would not give up watching a Brazilian soccer game for nothing  and that is why  I'm sure you're watching right now, somewhere, this game that being played live.
 I learned from you many things and almost everything reminds me of you. Soccer game is one of them. You loved him, in fact you are an expert as you played on a real soccer team as center forward. I remember well your movement when I fumbled your view of the TV. You would not let go these moments of vibration.
Football reminds me of you so much that Ican  feel you  so I bet you're here because here, at home, was your favorite place to be on a game day.
As you are here and I  do not want to mess up your game, I just want to thank you for the lessons I learned from you and that have been so useful in life: to be optimistic, to be silent, observe and reflect, to enjoy good music, admire nature, play with animals, like games and accept challenges. Thank you my dear son Iel

The revolt and the return

We all have different reactions to a fact as devastating as losing someone so fundamental to our lives and our happiness. But a common sign that soon happens is the revolt. We get angry, very angry even, of God.
I for one, felt betrayed and had led most of the pitfalls of God. After all, he had always been, or at least tried to be so close and cultivated both faith and worship over the years.
The Gospel According to Luke, Chapter 7, 11-17 account the passage in which Jesus and his disciples went to a city and there coming "... behold, a dead bore, an only child, and his mother was a widow ... Seeing her Lord felt compassion for her ... "The fact is that the boy that was dead came back to life.
When, still kneeling on the sand I realized that my son had gone to another place and that God did not have mercy on me despite all the prayers and supplications, I was disgusted. I was so sure that my beloved son would recover and that God would not allow his departure so young and so suddenly. It was God's Mercy Day and I was sure, that sad day, that God would not abandon me.
But my son left and I felt completely abandoned. Unlike Luke passage quoted above, God had no mercy on me or my son and left us. That's what I thought, and these thoughts consumed me during several months.
I lost the will to pray or talk to God. I did that all the time when I thought my son would be saved but nothing worked so I started to think that was not worth praying. I rebelled!
The days and months passed by and after many readings and reflections I concluded that I needed God. Now I understand that for some reason my son (Iel) had matured to leave and that he had fulfilled his mission here on earth. The widow's son probably not. Perhaps his widowed mother needed his help and could not leave her alone.
The fact is that our limited understanding is not able to understand the “why” for a lot of things but I realized one thing: it is not up to me to question, but to be humble, not for me to revolt but to accept and return to the comfort and faith that I only can meet in God.