Internal Battle

 

 

How difficult it is to face what saddens us

How difficult it was for me to face the beach, my husband's constant request I went unintentionally

Although beautiful, I know the sea reminds me of a beautiful time when the children were small

But the sadness that the sea reminds me of is immeasurably greater

It was too difficult ...

I went with husband and children, dear neighbors, sister and brother-in-law

I tried to circumvent my thinking.

Act like I was not there in the place where my son left us to never to return.

Today I fought a huge battle

Difficult to understand my impediment

 Only those who went through what I went through understand.

I think I said nonsense

I did everything so nobody noticed

But I was crying inside

I managed to do what I was asked so much but I violated myself

I think I will have to do this many times Not to sadden those I love

To look normal

I'm not... I went through the original sadness

 I did not want...

 May God have mercy and give strength to all who understand what I am describing, Amen!